Wilde: Asking for divorce was "worst day of my life"
Olivia Wilde, who played Thirteen on TV's House, found love at 19 when she married Italian prince and filmmaker Tao Ruspoli. But although she thought she was "the luckiest person on earth", she wasn’t exactly happy.
"There is this extraordinary person who's my partner in life, everything seems perfect. Why aren't I happy? There's something wrong," she told Amanda De Cadenet in an interview on The Conversation. "And I kept trying to do different things, change different things to make everything happy, make everyone happy... It's so scary."
"(I was) the most terrified I've ever been. And the day where I knew I had to ask for a divorce was the worst day of my life," she said. The 28-year-old actress filed for divorce from her 36-year-old husband in March last year citing everybody's favourite, “irreconcilable differences”. The separation was finalised on September 29.
Wilde hasn't been crazy about life as a single woman. "You go through this incredible roller coaster with your self-preservation. Initially you do whatever it takes to survive. I went through this period of being so high on having finally made this leap that I was almost in a manic phase. I lost a bunch of weight and I was never sleeping. Eventually, like everything does, it slows down."
Since her divorce, Wilde has had flings with Bradley Cooper and Justin Timberlake. "Dating was a lot more painful than I'd ever imagined. Learning to be by myself and be OK with it, and not need the validation of another human being, that has been the biggest challenge," she said. "But I know coming out of that, I'll be a better person and a better partner eventually for someone.”
She's currently dating Saturday Night Live funnyman Jason Sudeikis, 36, and said the relationship has brought out who she used to be.
"A lot of people say, 'Wow! I feel like I'm seeing an old friend who I haven't seen in years.' It's a good feeling. I do feel more connected to myself and I feel more relaxed because I'm very open and raw," she reasoned. "I feel like I've let people see me and I'm not longer trying to pretend I'm perfect."
Published June 8, 2012