Fiona contemplated suicide, stopped by Khalil
Who would have thought that Fiona Sit, the cheerful Hong Kong gal who's always wearing a bright smile, was once a depressed soul who contemplated suicide everyday?
The pretty lass revealed her dark past, admitting that depression almost got the better of her a few years ago, in an honest interview with Hong Kong newspaper Oriental Daily recently.
Being one of the most popular singers and actresses in Hong Kong, Sit's albums are selling well and film offers are pouring in for her. Just how did she go from a showbiz darling who seemed to have it all to a pessimist who overlooked her success and thought about nothing but death?
The signs were there, when she was doing a stage play called Last Smile, First Tear in late 2008. Even the tiniest thing, like a misplaced food order, could trigger the lunatic in her, sending her into a sea of negative emotions.
Sit, 30, recalled how she started magnifying every problem she faced, wallowing in self-pity and thinking that the people around her have wronged her. It did not help that her relationship with her mother - whom she's close to - was strained back then.
She started losing appetite and her body weight dropped to a mere 85 pounds (38.6kg) by the time she was filming comedy La Comédie humaine in 2009. While Sit won rave reviews playing Wong Cho Lam's psychotic girlfriend in the movie, little did everyone realise that she was actually playing herself, said Sit.
"People praised me for being able to do those emotional scenes - of course I could, since I was going mad inside!" she said.
It reached the worst stage when she started being overwhelmed by thoughts of dying. At one point, she even consumed red wine and a small dose of sleeping pills. Luckily for her, she didn't succeed.
On another night, she kept telling herself that she must "die tonight". Thankfully, before she put her thoughts into action, she decided to call Khalil Fong, one of her closest pals and a rumoured lover.
Sit recalled how she was crying into the phone: "I wanted to kill myself. Can you stop me?"
Fong, 28, calmly comforted her and chatted with her for a long time, making sure that she had given up the deadly thought before hanging up, and straightaway called her mum.
Sit said she was initially mad at him for doing that, thinking that he betrayed her trust, but eventually came to her senses. Things took a turn from that moment and Sit started confiding in her management and received treatment for her depression.
Apart from seeking help from - not one, but two - psychiatrists, she also relied on friends as well as religion. It took one year for her to recover and free herself from the abyss of darkness, she concluded.
Source: Oriental Daily (Hong Kong)
Published May 7 2012